Seriously?

What the hell?! You know, if I said that I detested this thing before, now I loathe it. Utterly. With every. Single. Last. fiber of my being.


It was bad enough that this thing would rip me from the warm embrace of the people I call family(pronounced friends), now the woman I love wants to just be part of this 'family.' In short, she wants to just be friends for now. Que sera, sera, what will be, will be, you know?

That's not the issue I'm facing. It's the fact that this THING. This so-called immigration to Canada, for so-called "greener pastures" for a so-called "better future" has caused the loss of so much of what I hold dear! It's infuriating and frustrating. The pain has become so great, that I just can't feel it anymore.

I feel at a loss. To be honest with you, at a loss as to what to do. It's not like I have a choice in going. They're practically dragging me with them. Oh I can't begin to describe the utter satisfaction I felt when my mom cried because of how bitchy I acted at a farewell party for them conducted/hosted by one of their high school friends. I feel so evil, but apparently, when I'm furious, I have no conscience.

Okay, I'll admit, originally, I was okay with the prospect of migrating, but to decide upon it without my consent, without even seeking my counsel? That's where they got me. To add to that, the time frame they put in place was so tight it was as if they would die if they don't get to migrate by July! I mean seriously, a couple more months of preparation would have been appreciated!

But one thing's for sure. Once we get there, I have no plans, ABSOLUTELY no plans to help my parents in any way whatsoever.